Hello friends! Today’s ‘Ask’…
Why is admitting that I am powerless to my addiction so hard?
Well, who likes to actually admit they are powerless over something? I know I do not. Feeling powerless has always been associated with weakness, with disappointment, with inadequacy. Yet, admitting I am powerless to my diseases has been a huge source of empowerment. Of strength. Of freedom! The definition of powerless is ‘without ability, influence, or power.’ Now that I am able to accept that about my addictions, I have the ability, the influence, and the power.
My ‘stinking thinking’ may always be there, but my rational self is always there as well. This rational self has the power now. I no longer need to fall victim to that detrimental mentality. That destruction. That isolating place where my world got smaller and smaller until it was just me when I was living in my addictions. That is powerlessness. I am powerful when I surrender to my addictions. I am able to live a life of my own design now and not be controlled by the demon inside of me. For so long, that was my reality. I am a creature of habit, so that demon was my habit. My addiction. That is no longer the case though as I have awoken in my life and claimed the power that is innately inside of me! My addictions blocked off that power for far too long and I have regained what has been mine from day one…power. One day at a time.
Now, I can admit I am powerless to my disease and thus, have empowerment in my life. Lauren’s life. That is a miracle.
What are your thoughts on admitting powerlessness?
Sending love,
Lauren
Ask4Recovery 
It’s definitely a hard realization to come to – admitting that the things that once made life survivable have now made life unlivable. But step one is one of my favorite steps because acknowledging the powerlessness and unmanageability of my addictions was a huge motivator for change.
Such a huge motivator! Change with addictions is scary, but so necessary to begin truly living the life we deserve!
Admitting my powerlessness for me, was a huge burden lifted. I understand that I am powerless not just over my disease, people, places and things but also my thoughts. However, I am not powerless over what I choose to do with those thoughts. I have a choice today and a Higher Power that is more powerful than this disease of addiction.
So true! I have the power of choice now. Something that for so long, I did not realize. It truly is amazing to feel the presence of my Higher Power.